Loay Auda: From a closed cell to the jail of exile

by Silvia Todeschini

26 November 2011  | International Solidarity Movement, Gaza

Released prisoners make their way into Gaza

Loay Auda, in Israeli prisons since 2002, was released in the last prisoner swap exchange. Native of Jerusalem, he was of the many deported to Gaza. In an interview with International Solidarity Movement, Loay and his mother describe the night of his arrest, the solidity of prisoners in the face of abusive tactics, and the meaning of freedom despite the many who still wait in the shadows of Israel’s industrial colonial complex.

The words of Umm Izrod, mother of an exiled prisoner

“It was April 5, 2002, during the second intifada. My son called me saying that we could finally meet, I could embrace him again, see how he was. He was hidden for 9 days in Ramallah, where there was a curfew, because he was wanted by the Zionist occupation forces. During those interminable nine days I did not hear from him, so we menaged to meet in the house of my sister, which she did not use because she had gone to live elsewhere. We sat, we cooked potato chips and drank coffee, then Loay had to take a shower, because for nine days he could not do it, then we were tired and went to sleep.”

“At two in the morning I heard a noise. I thought they were the patrols that monitor compliance with the curfew, but then I heard the soldiers who called us by our names. ‘Come out with your hands up!’ they said.

“I tried to wake my son, ‘Get up, get up, they are coming to get you!’ And he did not wake up; who knows how many days he did not sleep well. From the outside they continued to call our names and surnames. I woke him up with more energy. We were completely surrounded, we would never be able to escape. Soldiers were throwing stones at the windows. They continued to call us and we did not respond. We started talking about the arrest, and we told each other, ‘We must be strong and do not talk, do not say anything. Even if they torture us, we must resist.’

“At some point in that chaos we were even joking and kidding … Around us, the Zionists had a large deployment of vehicles, helicopters, tanks, bulldozers … It seemed that we were going to be bombed!

“At 6.30 we heard the door open. They went to my sister’s house to pick up the keys, and had used her children as human shields to open the door. I came out, and I tried to keep the soldiers busy, they told me to call my son. I did not want to come because I was convinced that if he would come, he would be shot.”

When he got out, his mother, terrified, tried to protect him from the soldiers with her body.

“They took my son and put him on the sidewalk for questioning. I’ve brought the shoes first and then the cigarettes, and the soldiers insulted me. It was completely dark, in the streets there were only the occupation forces because of the curfew, but I could see neighbors peering from the windows.

“I told my son, ‘You are the greatest. You see all these dogs around you? Not as good as the sole of your shoe. Remain strong and you will be released.”

Her son replied, “I will be released only when old,” and his mother recounts when a soldier said, “I hope you die before being released.”

The mother continued to describe her son’s arrest.  “They blindfolded him and called me to kiss him one last time, and then they loaded him onto the jeep and left.”

The treatment that was answered with strike

On his way to prison, the jeep stopped, explained Loay. They peppered him with a barrage of questions, and threatened to take revenge on his mother if he  did not cooperate.

The first period of detention, the so-called “investigation” is probably the worst time for each prisoner. Psychological and physical tortures are applied to try to get information on the activities of the prisoners themselves and on other people. The interrogation of Loay lasted 55 days and was held in the Russian Compound, a former Russian church occupied and used for interrogations.

“They were questioning about my own activities but also about my comrades. The torture was more psychological than physical. The Zionists had learned that if they physically torture the evidence remains, yet psychological torture is more difficult to prove. They threatened to arrest members of our family. We were tied to a chair for consecutive days. We were bound in rooms that played loud music.”

Loay was transferred many times. Initially he was confined to Askelon prison, then prisons in Bir Seb’a, then Nive Tirtza, then back to Ashkelon, then Gilbo’a to Shatta and finally back to Gilbo’a.

“In prison, we organize,” said Loay. “The members of each party choose a spokesman, and the spokesman discusses the strategy to ensure unity. Nobody was allowed to talk to the guards except the one whom we collectively gave that position.”

He continued to describe the conditions prisoners had to endure, like the violence of the police, humiliating searches, collective punishment, and days of isolation. There was only an hour or two of outdoor time per day, and  family visits were often forbidden. The food was cheap, and the diet was not healthy.

Loay participated in the last hunger strike.

“Our main demand was about the end of isolation. People in solitary confinement were locked in a small cell by themselves. And when given outdoor time, it was at odd hours and away from other prisoners, while still being chained. After two years in this situation, the psychological effects on prisoners begin to get really serious. At that time more than 30 prisoners were in solitary confinement for periods ranging from one year to 13 years. 10to 15 prisoners were in solitary confinement for longer periods. Ahmad Sa’adat was at his third year of isolation, and his psychological and physical health was deteriorating. We did some short strikes previously, a couple of days at most, but it was time to go through with something larger.

“The situation became even worse after the capture of the soldier Shalit. The soldiers attacked us more to try to make more pressure for his release. We could not study, books were not allowed.  We had arranged for an escalation of the protests. Then other people were added to each week. For example, I striked only the last week with the largest group. There were already 420 people and [when we joined] we were 300.”

The strike was not restricted to food, there was also a form of non-cooperation with the Zionists.

We had stopped to assist in the count, we got together no longer standing when it was time, and for that we had deprived at the time of any visit to family or lawyers.” prisoners in Israeli jails are counted more than once a day, when the jailer passes they are forced to stand in front of the entrance of the cell, under normal conditions if they refuse they are punished with beatings or a few days of isolation.

He said that the repression of the strike by prison guards was not a trivial thing.

The Zionists had left us nothing but water, and we were able to hide salt in some of the gaps of the beds. We had on heavy clothing, because one on hunger strike feels colder than usual. During the strike they continued to move us from one cell to another, from one prison to another. Three times a day the soldiers came and searched the cells from top to bottom, leaving all our other personal belongings in the center of the room. Already weakened by hunger, three times a day we had to collect our things and put them back in place. They deprived us of bottles [to drink from], so all we could do to drink was to drink from the same tap. They kept telling us that other prisoners in other prisoners had given up the strike, but we knew that was not true.

He explained that he was in solitary confinement for several days as punishment because he was on strike, and therefore knew nothing of the exchange.

“I came out of isolation and they told me that I was going to be released the next day. I did not believe it. I was shocked, because in a cell with me were people who were there for more time and they would have priority. There were people who were there for 27 yearsand were not included in this statement.”

He continued to speak about the attitude of the Zionists against them in the light of this exchange.

The names of those who were included in the agreement were not clear. The jailers had fun playing with our nerves. One day they came and said somebody was free, and the next day would that we were going to stay in prison. I did not have the certainty that I would be released until 10 minutes before, when they came to pick me up. Even when they were taking people to free them, they amused themselves and did not tell us anything. They passed by a cell and would call out, ‘Come with us,’ without saying where they will take him. Then the would come back, call to another, and say ‘Come with us.’  Until the last moment it was not clear which names were included in the list.

The outlook of an exile

Loay, a native of Jerusalem with 162 others originating in the same city or the West Bank, was deported to Gaza. His mother and another brother were able to visit him because, coming from Jerusalem, they are able to cross the border between Egypt and the Zionist entity. Other people were deported from the West Bank  yet cannot even be visited by family.

Loay explained, “In a year, 18 of us will return to the West Bank… And all the others, including myself, have no date  to return home. Perhaps we can never return. ”

Loay was excited about the fact that 1027 prisoners were released.

“This exchange was a fantastic opportunity. When you are in prison, even 5 comrades freed means a lot for you. Imagine the happiness in knowing that 1,027 will be released! This is a victory even for those inside. My comrades still in prison are glad I’m out.”

In an appeal to those released and the greater community, Loay said, “I ask the men and women who are out of jail to think about the prisoner question in an unitarian way, far from the logic of political parties. I ask, as a human being, to appeal to your humanity to apply pressure for the sake of Palestinian prisoners in Israeli jails.”

Silvia Todeschini is a volunteer with International Solidarity Movement.

Raw conversations with released Palestinian prisoners

by Alistair George

2 November 2011 | International Solidarity Movement, West Bank

Below is an abridged transcript of talks given by Palestinian former-prisoners, (released as part of the Hamas-Shalit deal) at PASSIA (Palestinian Academic Society for the Study of International Affairs ) Roundtable on ‘Prisoner Release – Palestinian Narratives’ on 31 October 2011.

Ibrahim Mish’al

I was captured on the 28 March 1990.  The Israelis entered my house with explosives and dogs; they didn’t care about the fact that there were children in the house.  My son was two years old then and my daughter was one years old.  My wife was three months pregnant.  It was really horrifying for them and my daughter couldn’t speak for one year afterwards.

 I will never forget those moments or the look on my family’s faces when the whole house, the walls, everything was demolished.  I was taken to an interrogation facility and on the way I was hit with everything that they had in their hands, including their rifles.

 I was interrogated for 50 days, during which I was tortured.  I was deprived of sleep, they made me sit in a special way of sitting, handcuffed from behind.  I was exposed to extreme temperatures – both extreme cold or heat.  I can’t really explain how these methods affected me.  Afterwards I knew that my wife was also interrogated.  Once the interrogation ended I was transferred to prison.  During the transfer I was also hit and when I arrived the way they accepted me was very cruel; each prisoner was handcuffed together by their hands and their legs and we entered a cell which had nothing in it, except for the walls.

 I was suffering continually.  We asked the prison authorities for a long time to improve our conditions.  They improved some of our conditions but they were less than the minimum expected for an acceptable existence.

 When it came to transferring me to court, it was living hell.  Usually they used to come early in the morning and handcuff two prisoners together and take us by bus into a detention centre in Ramallah.  We used to stay there for several days in a room situated underground, it was very overcrowded.  Sewage pipes passed across the ceiling and they were leaking all the time.  There were rats, cockroaches – the smell was awful.

 Because of that and because we wanted to improve our conditions, the only move we had was to go on hunger strike.  It was a very cruel method but it was the only method that we had.  It can be said that it’s negative or passive resistance.  We used to throw all the food that they tried to give us outside the cells.  We don’t just have to face the hunger but also what the Israelis did to us – searching the rooms, hitting us.  Some of the prisoners were transferred to other prisons, others were put in solitary confinement.  Hunger strike is like death itself but unfortunately we used to get our rights only when we used to go through this experience.

 Even after we got our rights after these hunger strikes, usually they take all these achievements that we reached away again slowly and because of that we had to go on hunger strikes each year or two because the situation in jail is really bad.  Each prisoner has only 1m2 where he has to live and do everything during the day time.  During these hunger strikes many prisoners died.

 I want to talk about the resistance of the Palestinian people.  We don’t like killing.  We resisted the occupation because we wanted liberty, we wanted to ensure our children’s future.  Israelis say that we are terrorists and our hands are covered in blood but they forgot that their leaders are drowned with Palestinian blood – especially Sharon and Netanyahu.  All Israeli leaders committed crimes against Palestinian people.  I can’t  really talk about the suffering I went through for 23 years in this short period of time.

Ibtisam Issawi

I am the mother of four daughters and two boys.  I spent 10 years in prison, I was sentenced to 15 years.

If prison is so difficult for a man, imagine how it is for a woman. Israel always claims that it is the only democracy in theMiddle East, and that there is equality between men and women but this is something we only hear and don’t see on the ground.  From the moment I was arrested I was treated very badly, they didn’t give any importance to the fact that I was a woman – I was also hit, humiliated.

I was arrested in 2001 and maybe in this period there is no more physical torture but there is psychological torture.  They used to insult me and use very bad words – I think that such words shouldn’t be used by someone who thinks that they’re a democrat.

They always used to threaten me by [invoking] my family and used to imply that Palestinian women when they resist occupation they don’t do it for the sake of resistance but for social problems, this is not the truth.

Regarding transfer between prisons and from court; they didn’t take any consideration to the fact that I’m a woman and I have other needs than a man.  Sometimes it took long hours, sometimes over one day.  We didn’t have any privacy in jails, they used to enter our cells whenever they wanted to search and sometimes to search us naked.

At the beginning of my imprisonment I was in Ramle prison, there I was treated not as a security detainee but rather as a criminal one and I was treated the same way as people that were murderers and people convicted of robbery or prostitution.  They were always searching us because they used to always claim that we might enter some drugs into prison.  Because of this we had to go on hunger strike to ask for our rights – because of that they treated us very badly and sometimes they used to try to force the needle of glucose into our arms to stop the strike.

My family lives in Jordan and my father is really old so he couldn’t visit me.  I always used to ask them to at least give me one phone call to speak with my father but they always refused saying that phone calls are only allowed when someone from the family dies.

Although we were in prison we used to try to have some kind of celebration to mark our holidays but they didn’t even let us put up some decorations to celebrate Eid.  They always used to say that ‘you are in prison not in a hotel’.

Palestinian prisoners are known to be well educated; although there was bad treatment, we managed to study in universities and to turn the prison into a university.  And even when it comes to studying, they always waited for the right moment to prevent us from studying, another reason why we had to go on hunger strikes.  I’ve been released now for 2 weeks and they’ve put so many restrictions on us.  For example, we are not allowed to enter the West Bank but the problem is that most of my family and my brothers live there – they can’t come toJerusalemand I can’t go and meet them.

Nasser Abed Rabbo

I was arrested 23 years ago – on 9 February 1988.  I still ask – why was I taken away from my city [Jerusalem] and my beloved ones?  I want an answer because I’m still under occupation.

 I was arrested from my house – they destroyed everything in the house.  I was handcuffed and blindfolded.  My arrest was not usual – I was not taken straight from my house to the police car; they took me through several neighbourhoods in my village, a very long distance – almost 2km, in order for the people in the village to see.  I was hit, especially on the head, and everyone saw me bleeding.  I think the purpose of this was to make me an example for any other person who tries to resist occupation.

 After interrogation I was taken to prison, this period of time is very important for the prison authorities and for the intelligence.  They all tried to exert psychological pressure on us and also during our transfer from prison to court.  They do this in order to make us finish our trials as soon as possible and not deny the charges.  They all imply that if you do so then the whole phase of torture and ill-treatment will come to an end.

 The Israelis always over-exaggerate in the media that they arrested a terror cell that was responsible for killing lots and lots of Israelis.  Yet lots of the times these people were imprisoned for 1, 2, or 3 years in prison.  The purpose for this action in order to show that the Israeli people that they [the security forces] actually work and achieve things and on the other hand to show that Palestinians are terrorists.

 Capturing our bodies between four walls, the reason is not just the act of capturing but also to capture our minds and to take us away from the society in which we used to have an active part.  They always used to put us in very small society circles and they prevented our family members from visiting us and restricted our family members from visiting unless they were first degree family members.

 They also restricted the number of TV channels that we could watch and even radios didn’t work without an antennae.  Although we were allowed to have TVs, we weren’t allowed to have control over which channels we watched.  They also prevented us from studying in Palestinian universities.  All of this was to prevent us from being a part of society to prevent us from understanding what was going on outside.

 The laws that govern Israeli prison authorities entered into force in the 1970s and most of the provisions of these laws are not used.  They don’t take into consideration that the world is developing all the time and our treatment partly relies on these laws.

 Palestinian prisoners represent all sectors of the Palestinian people.  There are also some prisoners who are from other Arabic countries and from all political parties.  Since the beginning of the occupation, prisoners tired to stay in touch with the political parties outside and tried to transfer these parties into prison as we believe that we are fighting for a just cause.  Everyone had the feeling that we had an obligation to continue resisting, even inside prison.  This was named the Palestinian Prisoners Movement – the Israelis didn’t like this movement and it was treated very badly.  They tried to impose policies and regulations and categorize prisoners as terrorists.

 In the 1970s in some prisons there were factories that used to manufacture the shields that were used to cover tanks.  Tanks that kill our people.  They tried to force prisoners to work in these factories in order to undermine our struggle and keep them away from their national cause.  But the determination of prisoners inside prison was a direct reason for forming a national unity with all parties and there were laws that governed the relation between the Palestinian parties in jail.  This was in order to ensure prisoners had the continuance of life and ensure that had a certain quality of life.  This movement was very strong, although the Israeli prison authorities always tried to weaken this body.

 Hunger strikes allowed us to gain some of our rights and those who say that the prisoner authorities are the ones that gave us these rights are lying, we used to get these rights by fighting and preventing our bodies from eating.  It was the only strategic weapon that we could use against the prison authorities to get our rights.

  Ali Maslamani

  I spent 30 years in prison.  We live inside jails under one highlight – the struggle of wills.  National dignity and humanity.  We succeeded using civil and organized life to live in pride.  We are optimistic – even inside jail.  Because we are right holders.  I say optimistic but not perfectionist – because we know what reality is like.

 We achieved many physical achievements but the most important achievements are the moral ones.  Life in prison became a very unique kind of life – everyone respected the other.  I have to say that I’m really happy and words can’t express what I feel now I am free and I am among my family and friends.

 When I was released I started feeling time.   The problem in prison is that you don’t feel time – we used to call time in prison ‘compressed time’ because there are no incidences, nothing happens, each day is the same.  But when  I was released I told my mother that only in one day I did so many things and went to so many places and this is the value of freedom.

 After we met our families and friends we forgot all the suffering and we knew that it was not for nothing.  We wonder whether this will help the awareness of our people and we also say that we will also be soldiers in order to help our people.

 We think that this is a continuous ceremony where the Palestinian people are celebrating their own sons that came to liberty.  Every single one of us is a big humanitarian case.  I’ve seen so many emotional scenes in my life but it was an amazing scene when we went out of prison and we saw how our families and friends shared our happiness and congratulated us. There is a need for a poet to really explain how we felt.

 In prison everyone has their own case – some throw stones, some did an operation, others killed Israelis but when we are asked about this we never brag about this, we always say that we resisted occupation in order to get liberty and to live in pride and have our own country.

 We used to send letters to national personalities and we always called for peaceful resistance for our people because we think bloodshed should stop and our people have the right to live on this land with holy Jerusalem as its capital.  Today UNESCO accepted Palestine as a full member and because of that we will keep being optimistic.

Alistair George is a volunteer with International Solidarity Movement (name has been changed).